Wowzers....

this pain is NO JOKE!!! I'm not sure what happened but things took a considerable turn for the worst late yesterday afternoon.. the pain in my stomach, coupled by the constant gas pain in my shoulders/neck nearly brought me to tears. I knew that it would not be a cakewalk, but I surely did not expect to be hurting so much!! I've been popping the pain meds like candy (although drinking...)



Shannon got here yesterday which has been nice to just lay around and chit-chat. I went to bed last night around 8 and woke up around every 2 hours with some sort of pain or another. I've been drinking water and vitamin water and Isopure protein waters.. I did have some wonton soup minus the won-tons and etc.. last night. It was so good!!! the heat on my throat did it a world of good... I woke up with very little pain in my throat and was able to swallow much better.

Got to take a shower today and that might be the highlight of my day!! I got to check out my incisions, which didn't look nearly as bad as I thought they would. My stomach still looks very 5 months pregnant like and it's rock hard. We went out to get pedi's and then hit up Target and Old Navy and that was about all I could handle for the day.

I haven't really felt hungry which is interesting.. I had to force myself to have a protein shake and then some leftover wonton broth this afternoon.. this is definitely something I need to get used to.

So, that's about all the update I have right now. Thanks to everyone for their encouraging texts, calls and flowers!! My house looks like a florist shop right now!! Love it!!

***anyone have any ideas for a name for my band?? *** I'm taking suggestions!! Oh, and we did decide it's a boy b/c no girl would cause this much pain on another girl!!

Done and Done!!

So, yesterday was the big day. I was actually surprised at how "not nervous' I was. I only had a couple of minutes where I thought I might be crazy for doing this, but overall the experience was good. I do feel like I have been kicked in the stomach, which kind of sucks, and my left shoulder hurts like a mo-fo due to the gas. Overall, I'd say I'm about a 4 on the 1-10 pain scale, which is pretty darn good!!

My husband has been doing a great job taking care of me. I was wishing I had a bell yesterday to ring while I was in my bed so he could come running.. after a few minutes of thought on that, I figured I'd better not press my luck!!

Shannon is on her way here this morning.. can't wait to see her!! Michelle and Kennedy popped over yesterday to hang with me for awhile too!

So far, so good!! going back to lay down now!

New Chapter...

So tomorrow is the big day. I gotta admit, I had a couple of moments today where I was SERIOUSLY nervous.. I was stressed and not very nice at work. But, I went to get my hair did after work and that seemed to relax me a bit. I picked up my prescription for my pain killers on the way home (Definitely do not want to forget those!! ) and I'm ready to go to bed!!

I have to get a little mushy (how appropriate since most of my food will be in a couple of weeks) but I have to say how grateful and appreciative that I have so many people who support me whole-heartedly in this decision. I haven't ever once questioned my decision to do this and with the exception of a couple people who have my best interests at heart and expressed concern, everyone has been unbelievably behind me. I started out keeping this decision a secret and told a couple people at a time party b/c I was ashamed that I had gotten to this point, but partly b/c so many people don't understand my struggles. But, once I started telling people, the positiveness was so overwhelming that I wasn't afraid to talk about it much anymore. For that, I' m truly gratelful and extremely fortunate to have such wonderful friends and family in my life.

Ok, so on to my number 2 and number 1.. my number 2 is something that came to me today.. I was smooshed into a 1/2 booth with Jen and Jen at lunch and was eating my usual salad (which, BTW, I'm so NOT going to miss those salads for a while!) and sure enough, I dripped on my shirt. Which is pretty much a daily occurance.. you see, when you are a big girl, lots pops out underneath your face and things just seem to fall on your chest.. I swear it is one of my biggest annoyances!!!

So, my number 1 is really simple.. I am having this surgery to simply GET ON WITH MY LIFE.. that's it.. nothing major, really anti-climactic but so very impactful... Like my BFF Shannon said to me tonight as she called to wish me luck, this is just the next Chapter in my life.. I couldn't have said it better....

xo,
js

Tick Tock Tick Tock..

I feel like I'm waiting on something.. like I have to get a lot of stuff done and then just wait.. oh yeah, I do have something I'm waiting on.. THURSDAY!! Can you tell I hate waiting?? I'm ready to get this over with!!!


Work has been surprisingly NOT busy which is great. I figure I'll take a couple of days off and then log on from home early next week for a few days before I come back into the office. Thank goodness I have a reliable co-worker who can do my job while I'm gone!! That's a stress I WON'T have!!


Michelle and I carved pumpkins last night.. I gotta tell you, in theory, carving pumpkins sounds like fun, but in reality, it sucked!!! I don't know if Arizona pumpkins are overly hard but my arms are killing me this morning from putting the death grip on that pumpkin.. about 1/4 way through, I was done.. and not interested anymore.. but I perservered!!! Here is my creation:

I did get to spend some QT with my girl Kennedy though and I'm happy to announce that since her sabbatical from me, spent kicking up her heels in Nebraska, she no longer freaks out at the sight of me.. in fact, quite the opposite happens.. I think she's in love with me now!! YAY! cause the feeling is mutual.. Here's a cute pic of KD - she's doesn't quite have the dexterity to carve pumpkins yet so we just let her lay on one instead:

So people keep asking me if I'm nervous about the surgery and I admit while there's a little nervousness, I'm not really so much so. I think excitement is overruling any nervousness. PLUS, I did a little digging this weekend and found some blogs of some gals who've also had the surgery and that has helped a ton in giving me insight as to how things go. So, my number 3 is to get this surgery over and have people stop asking me if I'm ready!! Yes, I'm READY!!!

Happy big 4-0 to my brother Jeff today!!! He's officially an old man now!!

Inching closer to Thursday!!

Holy Moly!! Only 3 more work days until Thursday!!

I got on the scale this morning and it appears that since I started WW 10 weeks ago and adding in my last two weeks protein diet.. I've lost a total of 26 lbs!! That's just crazy to me.. hopefully this is a good sign and I'm going to keep on keeping on..

Last night, we went to a comedy show with some friends and besides my jeans nearly falling off me, I actually woke up this morning sore b/c I was laughing my ass off!! I must of worked some stomach muscles in the process!!

Timmy and I spent the afternoon running errands and getting everything I need for Thursday and beyond. I'm fully stocked with broths, jello, pain meds, heating pads, night shirts, everything!!

So, my number 5 is that I cannot wait to get a little thinner so that when some douche-bag parks his car 2 inches from mine, I don't have to suck in so hard or better yet, get in through the passenger side.. I almost keyed a car today at Target.. !

Making a List..

This weekend is major Prep Time for the big day.. I've been making a list of things I will need for the first couple of days post-surgery so I'm completely prepared.. stocking up on:

*Liquid Tylenol (the kids' version)
*Gas X strips - for the painful gas that accompanies post surgery pain
*all types of broths
*protein packets to put in water, broth, jello
*jello
*filling my script for Pain Killers and anti-nausea
*Protein shake mixes for the after clear liquid phase
*crystal light

I think I'm ready!!
I had a great dinner last night with Joy and Michelle!! Such a good time to just chat and laugh!!
Tonight we are going to see a comedien Angelah Johnson - she's hilarious!! will post a link of some of her stuff later.

My #6 comes out of a conversation we were having last night in the bathroom.. I want to get to the point where if I wanted to buy "skinny jeans" I can!!

Oh, and let's hope Michelle's dream that I get so small that I could fit in a pocket doesn't happen!!! :)

Happy Birthday to ME!!!

I am 38 today.. gosh, how did I get to be so old?? The only thing I keep thinking today is at least I'm not 40 yet!!! I thought I'd be so much further on in life at 38 than I am.. you know, owning a house (even though I've already done that twice), having a couple of kids, financial stability.. all the things you expect to happen at this age. BUT, for me, life is much different than that. I have a great life, no lie, and am thankful for all the things I DO have and try not to dwell on the things I don't. I know that in today's day and age, people are settling down later in life, having kids later, but I just keep thinking, "I'm going to be in my 50's when my kid is learning how to drive.." that's a frightening thought!! Not that being in the 50s is old.. heck, my parents and my aunts and uncles seem like spring chickens in their 60s and 70s now.. I'm hoping it's all in the genes and I'll pick up that trait as well!!

So, enough of the pity party.. my birthday has been GREAT!!! My work peeps are all awesome and we all went out to lunch together. Tonight, I'm going out with Michelle and Joy for din-din.. and then tomorrow night, a couple of girlfriends and their spouses and I are going to see Angelah Johnson, a hilarious comedien. Unfortunately, this will be the first "dry" birthday I've had in like 20 years since I'm following the pre-op diet to a T and there's no drinking allowed.. oh well, I'll be the designated driver I guess!! :)

I'm skipping a couple of numbers to get back on track!! Cheating I know..

So, my Number 7 is: So I don't have to give excuses for being over weight. I was talking with a woman I work with yesterday and I was telling her that a lot of my weight issues are b/c of my thyroid issues, but the reality is, my thyroid is only 1/2 the issue.. I over eat, I enjoy food and I eat too much.. I'm tired of talking about!!! I'm so glad I'm doing this next week!!

Happy Weekend.

He had me at Burrito..

I knew it would happen sooner or later.. my chipper little love of these protein shakes would die and I knew there would come a day when I would beat down a co-worker for a taste of her bagel.. yesterday was the day it happened. It started with my morning jaunt to the cafe at work to get my iced tea with Jen. Jen proceeded to get a bagel and while we were riding up the elevator, all I could think of was, how do I get this bagel out of her hands and chow it down.. luckily the elevator doors opened and I snapped back into reality. Then, as the day progressed, and my meals continued to be unappetizing, I walked by another co-workers cube and saw not one, but two delicious looking blue frosted cupcakes.. it was rough to just pass her by.. but knowing that the blue frosting would give me away, I decided to forgo my urge..
I had my daily shake and it sucked the life right out of me..
On my way home, I called Timmy and he was telling me about his day and all words spoken after he mentioned the word "burrito" were a blur.. all I could focus on was that burrito and how jealous I was that he had the great fortune to be able to eat one..

So yeah, this pre-op diet was really hard yesterday.. not sure if it was b/c I was bored with my meals or just really hungry and wanting more, but the day sucked!!

Today is a little better. I tried a different pre-made protein shake and drank only 1/2 of it and allowed myself to some scrambled eggs, which may have been the best scrambled eggs ever consumed..

I know this will all be worth it and I just have to keep telling myself that. It's hard to imagine that a week from today, at this time, I will be banded for life.. it's been a long time coming. I know better things are ahead.

Speaking of better things.. yesterday while I was walking, I could hear my pants swishing together.. how annoying is that!! How I can't wait for that to not happen - for my thighs to slim down so my pants don't swish.. that's my number 10!!!

WHAT does that Scale Say??

Say What?? I got on the scale this morning, as I do EVERY MORNING (sorry, perpetual dieter's habit.. ) and it appears that I've lost 10 lbs since last Thursday!! How in the world does that happen.. I mean, I know that I've been eating next to nothing (well, drinking next to nothing) but I didnt' imagine that I would have lost this much so fast.. It's like I'm shrinking before my eyes (ok, a little overdramatic) Nothing fits any differently though which is a bummer.. I still feel like bloated and tight in my pants!!! :)



Anyhoo.. the protein shake/lean meat/green salad seems to be going pretty well. I only feel a little weak in the morning but by afternoon, I feel pretty good!! My memory is fading quickly though and I can't remember what number I'm supposed to be on.. hang on.. gotta go back and check!!

Ok, number 12 is to buy smaller bras.. it's no secret that my boobs are ginormous.. I'm hoping what they say is true, the first you lose is usually your boobs!! I say Hallelujah to that theory

Number 11 - when I get into the car after Timmy has driven it, I always have to move the seat way further back.. now, Timmy DOES have some short little legs, but I know it's also b/c I've got more cushion in my tush and it makes me ride a little higher in the seat!!

I think I'm a little off on my numbers and that could very well be true since I've never been real good at math.. but judging by my finger counting, number 1 will actually be posted on the 30th, which is the day AFTER surgery.. so I may skip a couple in the 10s.. plus, it's really hard to keep coming up with reasons!!! :)

Hot, Hot, Hot.....

Seriously Mother Nature... are you kidding me?? Why is it 100+ in October??? Come on!!!

For those living in states outside of the Southwest, that may seem like heaven given that you've been freezing your buns off in sub-40 degree weather lately, but I'm sick of it!! I'm a firm believer that October is meant for light sweaters, jeans, boots and scarves.. Arizona unfortunately does not agree with me.. maybe this is why people who actually grew up in AZ are just not that right..

Anywho... got another 9 hours of sleep last night and feeling good so far today!! Tried a new Protein Shake that I ordered a sample of off the internet and it was good!! Dessert Protein in Chocolate Coconut is yummo! I made the Cinnamon Roll one for Timmy and I almost traded him but alas, he hates coconut (never knew!) so I got my original.

And, Michigan State Scores!! (sorry, small sidebar while I watch this game!)

Last night we had dinner out.. it was interesting to say the least! Timmy was a champ and moved the bread to the opposite side of the table, which I appreciated. I ordered some Grilled Shrimp Skewers and Grilled Asparagus and it was just the right amount. It's amazing how you feel when you aren't full!! I could get used to this! I had a couple of light headed moments yesterday but just had a piece of cheese and a little peanut butter and was all better. I definitely have to watch the not having sugar portion of this pre-op diet. I figure a tsp of all natural peanut butter isn't going to hurt me too much.

We have no plans this weekend except to do a little cleaning, I'm catching up on all my DVR'd shows and we are planning on getting my birthday gift - a BIKE!! I can't wait to tool around town on my new bike. I'm hoping Michelle's getting one as well when she gets back so we can ride... speaking of Michelle, I can't wait until she and KD get back! I've missed them so much!!

Ok, number 13 is to be able to go out in the heat and not sweat like a beast b/c I'm carrying around this load of weight.. i thought that was appropriate for a hot day like today!

xo, js..

***Oh, I'm a huge fan of sending ecards and funny sites like someecards.com, but I found this other one that is not for the faint of heart.. it's completely blunt.. might be why it's called bluntcard.com.. hilarious!!

Feelin good..

So Day 2 on the pre-op is not so bad! I feel 100x better than yesterday, could be from the 9+ hours of sleep that I had last night b/c I was hungry and just decided that going to bed was the best bet for the night!! Today has been a better day emotionally as well.. I feel much better - maybe b/c I got it all out yesterday!! No chairs were flipped, no bruises obtained, not many f'bombs dropped.. overall, a successful day!!

I also tried two new Protein shakes - Muscle Milk in chocolate (Timmy bought them for me at the grocery store after I asked him for the Vanilla in the milk container, he brought home the chocolate in the floppy bottle - oh well! he tried) and it was good! Tasted a little like chalk at first but I was able to stomach it! THEN, the piece d'resitance(sp?) was a little protein packet shake I got at Sprouts. I mixed it with some Fat Free Milk and used the Magic Bullet that Jen brought into work for me.. it was cookies n'cream and was DELISH!! So, I'm sticking to those!!

Tonight Timmy and I are going to dinner - we'll see how that goes with me having to special order. And not drink the wine I love so much at this restaurant!!

So, my #13 is to never get in an elevator and have it jump up a little when I get in.. it sometimes happens when I get in with a group and I'm always scared it's me, but who knows if it is or not, I just don't want it ever to be me!! :)

Happy Weekend!!

Didn't have to search far for #14..

Are you ready for this?? I fell off my chair today. No, really.. I did. I was leaning over to pick up my work badge and I leaned a little too far, my chair rolled right back, dumped me on the ground and landed right on top of me. I'm sure I'll have a bruise the size of an armrest on my ass.. so, my number 14 is to lose some g.d. weight so that I don't tip a chair for god's sake..

Can you tell I've had a rough one?? Well, I have! My day 1 on my new pre-op diet has sucked majorly.. started off at 6:45 when I arrived to work to help out one of the PMs do a WEBEX. Webex's and me do not go together at 7:30.. I believe the last one I did at 7:30 resulted in tears of frustration and stress for me and sure as shit, so did today's.. there's something about technology at 7 am and me that does not mix.. as expected it was a cluster f and I had a mini-breakdown afterwards.. my poor co-worker had to talk me down from the ledge.. I guess I am a lot more stressed about things than I thought.. So, the day didn't get any better, didn't get any worse..

For my first meal, I had the girl downstairs make me a protein shake out of Vanilla Whey powder, ice and raspberries.. it was the nastiest thing I've ever had in my life.. it tasted like Comtrex cold syrup which is ICK! Then, I had a very big GREEN salad with spinich and broccoli and cucumbers with a grilled chicken breast. it was decent but it left me wanting more.. then around 3:00 I had a Muscle Milk Vanilla Protein Shake.. not sure if it was just b/c I had the shitty shake earlier but this shake tasted to me like a shake from Chik-fil-a.. it was so good!! So, I'm off to hi-health to get some more of those..

I definitely had my moments today but thankfully I have some awesome girlfriends at work who cheered me on and helped me strategize for the next couple of weeks. I am sincerely grateful for all the support I have here and everywhere!

Might just go to bed so I don't think about food tonight!! I know it will get better.. I keep telling myself that!

The Last Supper

Well, Well, Well.. here we are.. the day before my life officially sucks for 2 weeks (or more!) I was officially cleared for surgery last night and I can't believe it's 2 weeks from tomorrow. Holy SMOKES!!! I met my surgeon.. he stared at me, we exchanged some pleasantries and he asked me if I had any questions.. I held off on "yeah, um, do you have a personality or all you all hands and brains??" So, then I got all the information I needed for the next couple of weeks, the day of the surgery and beyond. I have a lot of stuff to take care of pre-surgery like get my prescription filled for the pain killers, stock up on "clear" liquids for the first couple of days and generally just get prepared. Am I prepared?? My boss Justin was all 20 questions with me this morning asking me all sorts of questions about my mental readiness for this and while I kept saying yes, his questions did bring up a lot of thought in my brain! I really do think I'm prepared for all the changes. I was really frustrated with Timmy last night b/c I don't think he fully grasps how different things are going to be and how hard it will be at first, but I'm trying to come up with a way to drill it into his head.. any ideas??

So anyways.. tonight is my last supper.. technically I've been eating all day though! Lisa and I are going out to dinner tonight with an old co-worker tonight and I plan to eat some things that I won't be able to eat post-surgery like Chicken Wings and Grilled Cheese and some beer of course (total sidenote but I did find out that I will be able to have a beer or two around 2 months after the surgery - Yippee!!! ) and then tomorrow I start my pre-op diet of Protein Shakes and no carbs/sugar/carbonated beverages.. WISH ME LUCK!!

On to my list:

#16 - I want to be around to celebrate my 40th Wedding Anniversary with Timmy. My parents and in-laws both celebrated theirs this year and I really think that by doing this, I'm going to extend my life expectancy

#15 - I want someone to be able to give me a piggy back ride and not break their back!

Oh MY!! Way Behind!!

Hey peeps, I'm back.. in the USA!! I tell you, I needed to get out of that country asap otherwise, I would forever be in a food/beer induced coma for weeks leading up to my surgery.. the crazy thing is, even with all the eating and drinking, I don't think I gained a pound, which is fabulous! could have been from all the trips to the bano as they say in Mexico.. but I don't know? ;)

So, I'm super way behind.. I don't know if I can come up with as many as I need to but I'll try!!

#24 - I can't wait to have lower grocery bills.. I mean, Timmy and I are freaks already when we see how much we've saved on every trip to the store.. imagine how stoked we'll be when we are just buying so much less since I'll be eating so much less!!! More money for the new outfits I'll need b/c I'll be the Incredible Shrinking Woman!!!

#23 - I want to turn heads, and not in the way that I currently do..

#22 - I want to be in a wedding and have the same dress that looks good on all the bridesmaids look good on me. We saw a couple of weddings this weekend in PV and there was a dress that 3 bridesmaids were wearing that was to die for.. I want to have that satisfaction that I don't need a "special size" dress.. not that I'm sure I'll ever be in a wedding again but just in case, it's a goal.

#21 - I need to avoid Diabetes. A couple of years ago, I was going to a naturpathic doctor and she said I was borderline Type 2 diabetic.. I freaked.. went on a cleanse and got myself in better physical shape. I did not want to carry one more problem around with me like my thyroid issues..

#20 - I want to be a candidate to donate a kidney. My dad will eventually need a kidney and it was like a punch in the gut to hear the coordinator tell me that I could not even be tested b/c my BMI was too high.. Even if I can't donate, I want to at least see if it's a possibility for him.

#19 - I want to stop comparing myself to other chubbos.. there was a very large woman on our trip and I kept looking at her and hoping that I did not look like her. I even asked both Timmy and Shannon and they assured me that I didn't but they could have been just being nice.. I don't want to be someone that another chubbo compares herself to either..

#18 - I can't wait to eat a little and be full!!! The biggest issue I had this past week was that I was eating but was never stuffed, nor was I ever hungry though either!! I think there was something in the food that made it that way!!!

#17 - I want to go parasailing!!! Most of the girls and Timmy went on Tim's birthday but I was too afraid that I might not fit the weight requirement so I didn't even check into it. I had a great time while they went but it was kind of embarrassing.

Ok, so I think I'm caught up. I'm starting to feel really embarrassed by all of these goals.. I like to think of myself as a positive person whose weight does not define me, but after re-reading some of these, I feel like maybe my weight does define me.. should I be having all of these feelings? If it didn't define me, would I be worried about all the superficial stuff?? So maybe it does.. all I know is that I don't ever want to go back to who I am today weight-wise.. never again..

Hola from Mexico!!!

Just jumped on here for sec.. we are having an amazing time!!! We are so lucky to have such great buddies!! Everyone has been so fun! The weather has been almost perfect, save for a couple of thunderstorms here and there.. we're all tanned and sunburned and have been maintaining a good buzz all weekend long!!! We'll be sad to leave tomorrow but happy to have such fun memories we can all laugh about!!
The food is pretty good and we've all been eating enough to last us for months if we ever got stuck on a deserted island.. what a way for Timmy to usher out his 30s and me to get ready to start a new chapter in life..

I'll blog more on Monday after we've come back home!!

xo,
me

Self-Diagnosing..

I think the Internet is the devil... no, I mean it.. I realize that I'm currently using the internet to post this little diddy and I use it all day, but for the love, I'm going crazy researching this whole surgery thing I got coming up in less than 4 weeks!!! I need to stop reading the blogs b/c I'm psyching myself out and getting uber confused with what people say it's going to be like.

Hell, I'm a self-diagnoser for sure.. I have a headache and I go to WebMD and diagnose myself with a brain aneurism (sp?), I'm convinced I've had a 30 lb tumor in my belly for years.. just no doctor will believe me, I've been menopausal 3 times in my life, pregant at least 20 times.. you see where this is going?? I think I get this from my mother.. she used to self-diagnose all the time out of this big medical book we had at home!

So, I'm swearing off the internet when it comes to this surgery.. I'm going to follow doctor's orders ONLY!!

Get the Funk out.. and a small victory worth mentioning..

So, I had a fabulous weekend!! I spent some quality time with some friends that I hadn't seen in a while and it was so fun! On Friday, I went over to my friend Diane's house and we had a slumber party! I met Diane on a blogging site called Multiply. We met about 2 years ago when I invited her and her husband to over for the Michigan State/UM game. We all instantly clicked (could be the Michigan connection.. seems like everyone from Michigan gets along!! ) and have been friends ever since. We don't see each other very often but when we do, we just pick up where we left off. One of the other online buddies came to stay with Diane and I got a chance to meet her. Mel has been an "online" friend of mine for about 3 years and this was our first meeting. She was just as fabulous as I thought she'd be. The 3 of us just hung out, gossiped, laughed and drank some cocktails. I definitely needed the quality time with friends this weekend after the ridiculous week I had at work.





On Saturday, MSU won!!! WOOOT!!! So exciting!! Later on the day, Timmy and I went to our friends Clay and Nicole's house and had dinner. Again, we don't see Clay and Nicole very often to both of our busy schedules and their kiddos multiple activity involvent. But again, our relationship with them is sooo easy. It's a priceless friendship - the boys get along, and Nic and I could talk for hours. It's definitely good for my soul to have such awesome friends!





In 3 days, we'll be in Mexico!!! today, we spent running around getting last minute things bought for the trip. I can't wait to see the Chicago crowd down there!!





so, on to my small victory today. I went to Old Navy and bought a couple of shirts.. there, that's it.. so, you are probably wondering, "what's the big deal with that? anyone can go to Old Navy and buy some shirts" and my response to you is this.. not EVERYONE can just go to the Old Navy and buy clothes.. they don't have chubby people clothes there, only online. Well, I was looking for a hat to wear in Mexico but wandered into the sale area and found a couple of shirts that looked like they might fit AND THEY DID!!! I was so excited!! My little 13 lb weight loss so far is obviously doing something for me.. Never mind that I'll probably gain it all back in Mexico (I'm going to try not to!!) but, it was exciting!!





On my goals, these are getting harder for me to do, but I'll keep plugging away:

#27 - when I look in a full length mirror, I want to not just look at my face and then look immediately down at my shoes.. never looking in between...

#26 - I think I mentioned this before when I first started blogging, but I want to run a 5K

#25 - wear a bathing suit without having to immediately jump in the pool or worry about people staring

OH, you know how I mentioned that I wanted to wear sleeveless tops?? Well, watch out friends who are traveling to Mexico with me... I'm gonna be showing off the arms!! Don't be alarmed!!!

Zipping on to #28

Holy Smokes.. number 28.. yikes!! Now it's all starting to seem a little real!!
I begin the process of getting ready (as if the last year wasn't enough of getting ready) for the surgery tomorrow when I go in for labs. Then on the 13th, I have my final pre-op appointment, the 15th starts the pre-op diet (fast, as I like to refer to it) - Oh, don't you even second guess that on the 14th I'll be chowing down some good eats!! :)

So, #28 - We are going to Mexico as you all know and I was telling my friend JRo that I know that everyone's going to want to go zip-lining while we are there and I'm afraid that I'm over the weight limit to do it.. how embarassing.. So, she suggested that my goal for today was that I won't have to worry about things like that after the surgery. I shouldn't have to worrry about anything but having fun, and unfortunately, that's not the case at the moment.

Still in a funk.. work needs to start being fun again..