Fa Fa Fa Forty - One

I wanna be able to do this!!

In Yoga, this is called Paschimottanasana

I've been taking yoga for the past couple of months here at work, and while I'm no Yogi (isn't that what they call themselves??) I am in love with the practice.. I am surprisingly (not so to me though) flexible with most of the poses and even with my bigger frame, am able to do a lot with little difficulty.. However, this pose above eludes me.. I have so much going on between my neck and my legs (big boobs, bigger belly) that this almost suffocates me when I bend forward.. my boobs lift right into my neck and constrict my air flow.. it ain't pretty!!! So, I'm hoping the slimmer I get, the more I'll be able to do this position, but for now I'll just keep on trying to breathe!! :)

Happy Weekend!!

Laugh, Dance, Love #42

My number 42 goal is to lose weight so that when I go to ELLEN and dance in the aisles, that dreaded 10 lbs that the camera adds won't bother me one bit!!!

Michelle and I are obsessed with Ellen and we always talk about going on her show so one day, taking a break from work, I went on to her website and looked to see how to get tickets and pulled up the calendar for November and clicked on the only date that said "Get Tickets". I put in the number of tickets I desired (3 - one for me, one for Michelle and one for Angela who lives in LA and who would most likely be housing us for the night! ) I honestly thought that I would put my information in there and would never hear back from anyone but lo and behold, Danny from the Ellen show called me two days later and asked me if I was still interested in attending and I said HELL YEAH!!! So, on November 17th, turn on your TVs (most likely won't be played on that day but just follow along with me!) and watch out for the three of us dancing in the aisles with Ellen and Tony!! Now, if only we could figure out how to get actually ON the show!!! :)

Me and My Shadow.. #43

While I was walking home from Michelle's the other night and it was dark, I caught a glimpse of my shadow and realized that my shadow looks very similar to an oompa loompa, minus the orange face and goofy outfit!!

So, my reason #43 is so that I can rock my shadow!!! :)

Promise to be back to real blogs tomorrow!!

The BIG #44

A year from now, I want to be able to watch The Biggest Loser and not wish like heck that I could be a contestant on it.. I can't tell you how much I see myself in so many of those people.. while most people watch that show b/c it's inspiring, I watch it b/c I can totally relate and I can understand their struggles and their heartache that has come with being large and not in charge of their lives..

So, I'm saying it now.. I don't ever want to be considered for The Biggest Loser after this!!

My new fave on the show said something that really sticks out to me and it's something that I said in my very first blog.. "this weight does not define me.. " That's right Abby!!! :)

Reason #45

*** I want to go to a baseball game/sports game/concert and not worry that my fat booty will be too big for the seats.. *** we went to a baseball game on Saturday and I felt like we were smooshed in like sardines.. hate that feeling..

Let's get back to business...

The original point of this blog was to talk about my weight loss surgery and I just noticed that I rarely do that! So, starting today, I'm getting back to the business at hand and will try to post more about the lead-in to the surgery! I just realized that in less than 46 days, I'm going under the knife to transform my life.. I'm starting to freak out a bit! Mostly I'm worried that I'm making the right decision, one that I won't regret. I don't think I will, but what about those days when I just really want to eat whatever I want or have a beer or two and the urge is too great?? You see, I'm an emotional eater, a celebratory drinker and and all-around party lover.. how am I going to handle those situations?? I can't just not go to things b/c I'll worry if whatever I eat comes back up or that I'll be annoyed with people who are drinking around me and I can't.. These are the things that I think about! I also know that not only am I going to be changing, but this will be a big change for everyone who I spend time with. I hope everyone is understanding that I won't be the exact same me...

BUT, one of the highlights I'm looking forward to is my BFF Shannon is coming into town when I have my surgery to help me out! I honestly think I can say that this is the nicest, most generous thing that anyone has ever done for me. I must have done something good to deserve such a kind-hearted friend.

So, for the next 46 days, I'm going to post a little something that I'm either hoping for as a result of my surgery, something I'm wishing for, etc.. so here's #46...

#46:

I want to not be limited to where I can shop for clothes..

Long time no Blog..

So, I have a new co-worker. She's very sunshiny and always positive and it's making me crazy!!! I'm just not that happy all the time!! I need a wee bit of bitchiness in my life, I'm noticing! Anyways... she's starting to learn little things about me and the last couple of days, we spent quite a bit of time together and she was telling me that she noticed that I'm always putting on lipstick or lipgloss.. ha! I told her that is one of my obsessions/quirks! So, we started to talk about what other quirky things are about us.. and I thought I'd write a blog about it!! Most of you who know me well will recognize a lot of these things about me, however, I have picked up a few new thingys about me in the past couple of years that you might be surprised about..

1. I am obsessed with having lipstick on my lips at all times (except when I'm sleeping!) there is something about my lips being bare that I cannot stand! I can't do clear lipbalm, chapstick, gloss, etc.. it has to have some color and it has to preferably be a color that goes with my skin tone! I remember once in Chicago, counting the number of lipsticks that I had in my purse and I think I had at least 20 lip products at one time!! No wonder I always need to carry a big purse!!!

2. I love anything with Buffalo Sauce on it.. you could put buffalo sauce on some brussel sprouts and I'd probably eat them.. sadly, I have not found a low fat Buffalo Sauce alternative so my days of eating anything buffalo style may be coming to an end soon...

3. I have a freakish knowledge of all things celebrity.... I've always been good at knowing what was going on with the celebs and I think if they would have had a degree in useless celebrity knowledge, I probably would have graduated with honors.. I don't know how I know all these things.. (sometimes my friends try to scoop me and they rarely can!) b/c I don't really spend a ton of time on celeb sites getting the news.. I'm just always in the know..

4. I'm becoming more and more like my mother everyday.. I can't go into a grocery store without having to go to the bathroom.. it's scary (sorry Kath! )

5. I love Facebook, although I'm thinking I need to de-friend some friends on there.. I hate when I post a status and people go all negative on there... for instance, I said "less than a month to Mexico" and this girl I used to work with wrote something like "Oh, I'm banned from Mexico - my cousin got raped and murdered last week in Cancun.. but I'm sure you'll be fine" Ummmmm, WTH?? How am I supposed to respond to that?

6. I'm really frugal but I like to pretend I'm not.. ever since the Great Depression hit the Stull Family, we've become extremely frugal.. nothing gets us more excited than seeing how much we saved at the grocery store at the bottom of the receipt!

7. French Pedicures on toes give me the heeby-jeebies.. no one's toes should be that long.. yuck! OH, and another thing with nails.. does anyone else but me notice that when there is an older lady working at a gas station, there's a 90% chance her nails are going to be painted that dirty peachy color.. ewwwwww

8. I'm one of those people who goes into a salon and says to the hairstylist, "I don't care what you do with my hair, just as long as I can style it myself".. I think I'm a hairstylist's dream!!! Although, ever since the Great Big Bang Debacle of 2008 (where I trusted some Russian dude / aka idiot with scissors to cut my hair and my bangs were all jacked up and STILL ARE!), I'm a little more cautious with the front part of my hair!

9. I really hate negative nellies... seriously, if you have only negative things to say about everything, don't sit next to me..

10. I wish I had a talent like singing or dancing.. which is funny b/c I start shaking at the knees if I ever have to publicly speak! Yesterday, someone gave me a microphone to use for crowd participation and I felt like I wanted to start belting out "Hotel, Motel, Holiday Inn.. say what?" (my new favorite song!!! )

I have a bajillion more things that I could write but work is calling my name!!

Ta Ta for Now!!

11. Ok, had to add another couple!!! As Michelle pointed out (and how can I forget?) I am obsessed with fountain pop and the ice that goes in it.. so much so that once we were up north and I made my mom stop at like 5 different places b/c I HAD to have a fountain diet coke.. (who knew everyplace between Petoskey and Pellston ONLY serves Diet Pepsi.. which is totally not the same thing!) and the ice.. while I prefer my ice to be crushed, I will take it any other way, as long as it fills up the cup!!!

12. I only will sit on the end of the aisle in movies.. I hate feeling like I'm blocked in by other people and have to step on toes to get out!!

13. I will only write with a medium point BLUE pen.. or a pencil. I hate black pens.. or fine point for that matter!!!

14. I am constantly worried that I don't have enough deodorant on!! My biggest fear is stinking!!