Up, Up, Up... goes the number on the scale :(

Do you hear the loud UGH every morning that comes from the 2nd floor of my house??  Yep, that's me.. every morning when I get on the scale.  I knew that when my dr. unfilled my band to half of what it was 3 months ago, I would gain some and I knew that it is normal to gain while pregnant, but what I didn't know or realize was how this would affect me so greatly.  Admittedly, I haven't been that fantastic about eating the best, but for the love.. can a girl who has lost 80 lbs get a break and not see the scale go up almost every day?  I'm an emotional wreck about it!  I know that in the end, a little sweet baby will be the result, but I gotta tell you, this is messing with me big time. I think I need an intervention. Otherwise, I'm scared I'm going to find myself in the exact same spot I was in October, 2009 and lord knows I don't want to go there.
I need to get it together and really focus on what I'm eating, not eat the shit that keeps ending up in front of me and really keep working out, which I've been pretty good at.  Wish me luck.

Other observances lately:

• Ok, so we all know I've never been pregnant.  So, we can assume I've never experienced some of the things that are happening with my body right??  So, when I bitch for a minute that I'm super exhausted b/c I get up every 1.5 hours to go to the bathroom every night, which leaves me with a total of about 5 hours of collective sleep, please don't laugh and say things like, "oh lord, you are a mess, just you wait until the baby comes and you get no sleep" or "get used to it, you won't be sleeping for the next 18 years". Instead say, "Yeah it sucks.. I remember when I was pregnant for the first time, it sucked."  I swear if one more person makes light of my complaining (and it's not like I'm complaining 24/7)  and seems to forget that they were pregnant for the 1st time too once, I'm going to lose my mind.  I feel like telling my co-workers, "please don't ask me how I'm feeling b/c when I tell you, you are just going to smirk and make fun of me.. "  And while we are on this subject, please stop telling me I "seem grouchy".. yeah, I am. Get used to it!! And I don't even want to talk about the constipation issue.
• Ok, that rant is over..  sorry, just had to bitch for a minute (or two)
• Anyone seen Black Swan? Ok, I've seen it twice now. Went again with two of my girlfriends last night..  I saw it the first time and thought "What the EFF???"  and then the more I thought about it, the more I thought I liked it, so I gave it another shot..   turns out, I did not like it. After seeing it again last night, I think it's just bananas.  I don't think I like it.
• There is a new show coming in February on Lifetime called "One Born Every Minute" and I'm going to force my husband to watch it.  It looks like it's a reality show about babies being born and it follows the parents as they check into the hospital and prepare for delivery. It looks absolutely hilarious.. the way the wives talk to the husbands..  not a lot of happiness going on pre-delivery!
• Golden Globes are this weekend. One of my most favorite days of the year.  YEah, I'm a celebrity stalker/loser.. can't help it. Always have been, always will be.
• We had our company Annual Event last weekend and it was a snoozer...  normally it's so super fun, but this year, there was a wierd Mexican band and dancers that were kind of freaking people out.  No DJ so people didn't get to make a fool out of themselves, causing weeks of gossip and chatter to follow. 

I think that's it.  SOrry for the diversion from normally happy fun Jen blogs to Crabby Patty blog...  I'll be better next time.

xo,js